this week the baby is the size of a paw paw (that’s ‘papaya’ in american).
there was a big milestone this week: s got to feel her first kicks! i have been very impatient for this so i’m very happy it’s finally happened. 
i’m experiencing shortness of breath quite a lot. even when i’m sitting quietly, i’ll suddenly find myself gasping for more air. it’s quite disconcerting.
i think i may be having some big hormonal fluctuations because i’ve been struggling with some very negative emotions this week too. i was prone to this pre-pregnancy, and knew that there was a chance that being pregnant could exacerbate the problem… i guess the warnings were justified, though it’s been tough because i’ve also had weeks where i’ve felt really strong and calm and happy – better than i have in years. i suppose there’s not a lot of point in over-analyzing things. when things are bad there’s not much i can do but ride it out…